Throughout my whole life I have never really truly felt at peace with myself. There is always some insecurity poking its head up or the constant worry of what other people are thinking of me looming in the back of my mind. I tend to blame myself when something goes wrong in any situation.
It is a difficult way to live your life, it creates obstacles that aren't actually there. In fact I create those obstacles all by myself in my own mind.
It is madness and I know this.
I have known this for a very long time and I have been working on certain parts of myself to make my life better. Today I decided to forgive everyone whom I thought did me any wrong in the past. I took 30 minutes of my morning focusing on forgiving everyone that had done me harm including the girl who broke my heart recently.
After ward I thought to myself "I really do feel at peace right now" Its like there is empty space in my head where the fear, anger and resentment used to be. It is a peculiar feeling but I like it and I will continue to keep forgiving others and most importantly myself in the future.
We all owe it to ourselves to be happy, we have one life to live and I want to be happy as much as I possibly can be. Amazingly I find myself in a part of the world where everything is simple and my surroundings are beautiful, the perfect place for me to connect and figure out the issues that have plagued and disrupted my relationships with people in the past.
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