Sometimes you have to forget about what you want and remember what you deserve.
Today it has been one month since the break up. It has been hard and still is, I fear going to sleep because I dream of her and wake up wiping wet eyes. I miss her morning kisses, the late night tomfoolery and the intense love making that left us shivering with pleasure. I can still here her whispers of I love you in my ear.
I feel I will never find the connection and closeness we once had, like there will be no one else that could compare to her. She was honestly the best I have ever had.
Two days ago I dropped of a letter for her at her place, I left early so that she would still be asleep because I didn't want to bump into her on her way to work. I got there at 6: am and her car wasn't there. Could she really be with another man already, did I honestly mean so little to her that she could be sleeping in someone else's bed so soon.
I suppose these are my crazy assumptions and I should stop letting my mind run wild after all it is over and I need to accept that her life is no longer a part of mine. That thought pulls at my chest from the inside like a bag of bricks, my heart fills with pain at the thought of it.
I am working hard on moving on but she is always with me, my mind always reminding me of the past.
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